i love lovelyz hi song and the mv its such so touching and fills you with lots of beautiful serene emotions ,, i just got chills with the bridge its a song that i really lovvvvvve lovvvve and lovvvvve so much with lots of lovelyz songs an mvs ,, i also remember how while i was on tumblr and while exploring one of those pages where you can put a song or a melody in the background of the page i heard their predebut release and i filled in love with it immediately and when i searched for it i was like oh these are lovelyz,, cause i think i saw their debut song candy jelly love before it ,, anyhow i was writing about them here cause they gonna make a comeback soon and this year its their 10 years anniversary and after their contract ended in 2021 they didnt make any comeback as if they were disbanded,, thats why this year its just super special that it will be their start of their coming back together as a group and also their reunion project on yoo show with their 1st appearence after 3 years and them performing their songs aaaaaaaahhhhhhhh i lovvvvve lovelyz so much and may they continue flourishing as individuals and as a group with their amazing producers especially their unique producer that i didn't know that it was him until the yoo show ep ,, i was super surprised yet thrilled to anticipate more of his amzing art works with amazing artists like lovelyz ~♡

 the cool , cold and windy rain its just a pure remedy to the soul a refresh energy that's entring your body and mind to sooth them to cleanse them to heal them to simply make you feel the rhythm of the beautiful rain and feel the rhythm of the beautiful life ♡

it was raining moments ago and it's past 5 p.m and i was enjoying the beautiful breeze and the beautiful rain ♡

 today is 29th of july and its really weird to me that i spent 6 months and one week here at hargeisa,, i am sitting in front of the door out side the house ( the day'ir ) and there in front of me on the side the lemon tree ,, the other long tree and the other longest tree of all the tree hahaha i remember being here in february at one of its mornings i think it was 10~ 11 ish oclock sitting and producing my own melody its like the 1st melody i ever produced and published it in my youtube channel hehe i am sitting here at the same place that i dont now how many times i sit lets say millions hahaha just to emphasize the large amounted of times that i sit here though now its 8 a.m in july with cold weather and back then it was in february with hot weather ,, by the way the weather here is weird , the seasons go like this : winter , summer spring winteresh which is now and then i dont know hahahaha 

and good morning beautiful people .

today in the morning i was super blessed and happy how the little two kids my cousins reacted to my youtube channel especially hibo as the oldest cabiraxman left to continue doing his homework ,and as i watched my vidoes again on the big screen and that child hibo was also watching and being mesmerized that i actually have a youtube channel , hearing my voice and seeing me and what i am doing here and there in the videos ,, i dont know but after watching these videos i really git mesmerized like i was watching a star hahahaha though i was super shy letting them watching while me sitting by their sides it was a pretty refreshing to not feeling shy forward as i continued watching with hibo ,, that gave me courage and confidence to continue and to apprear fully in my upcoming videos being that wholesome artist and youtuber that everyone look for in good ways and me being proud of my self by the quality of the contents that i delivered and continue to and revolve with the things , atmospheres and auras that i love , live by and live with ~♡ 

with so much love 

the enchanting , cozy and dreamy me 

enchancozreamy ♡♡

its o.k if you are in a search of your self ,, if you are in this kinda of ( messy ) worlds or not its o.k to search for your self its o.k to be your self , the true will reveal it self in regards to your life and your surroundings,  when you start to search and remove all these accumalative unnecessary layers on your self when you become your true self your pure self , the fitra that we are originally pure energy from the source .

life will revive it self for you , things will locate them selves into their own places and you live your life in delight . 

the joy and the gratefulness once you allowed them to be they will be , once you remove and just change by simply switch off & on these bottuns then breath to be you and revive ,, you bloom into this indescribable magic ,, you are the magic and you are one of those blessings .

GOD bless you alawys ,,

to my dear self ,,

i adore you 

i love you 

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 in terms of birthdays and those kind of dates and deadlines like doing certain projects on timeline or more specific on time limit / date / deadline i dont work with them anymore ,i dont like to restrict my self with time limit i like to do everything with the flow ,, the restriction with time limit made me anxious and stressed cause sometimes i dont feel my self celebrating on the same times/dates over and over again or finishing projects or tasks on certain deadlines over and over again stressing my self out on the time ,wanting to do things quickly without qualifying my skills and without enjoying  , i love to be on my pace on my flow when i finish i finish when i want to do / hold i do and hold, let the world be by its own and do your contribution joyfully enjoyably when it comes to my mind its more joyful and do things in a blinks of time rven if they take time i do them all deliciously hahaha ,, so next time instead of celebrating someones birthday on their birthdate i will celebrate that person in another way on his special day and the other dates and deadlines would be the same ,,

have beautiful joyful blissful days ahead each day everyday  ,,

i am always thankful and alaways gratful .

 today i went to down town shopping with my older sister sacda and the that feelings the atmosphere that i talked about before maybe here or in my diary happend the engaging crowded living community in the morning the one i experinced back in uni and school ,, it happned today and i was part of it ,, me going out at 9 a.m ,, walking for long ,, shopping ,, ,, i noticed different shops during today's trip the shipping office ,, the art shop while riding the bus ,, ,, talking with the sellers about the prices ,, the wind that reduced the sun temperature and i was able to walk joyfully ,, sleeping in the bus while going back home hahahha ,, we went back home at ~ 12 p.m .

 after i watched cinderella,, i didnt think that these kind of balls existed ever again , ( maybe also because i didn't know the term " ball " in English since i watched the series in arabic before ) anyhow while i was on youtube a channel i follow posted a video on january and she went to a ball ,, that video poped up in my main page on youtube ( i slightly remember that i opened that video before but didnt watched it although i might be wrong and nothing of that happened hahaha ) and i watched it and was really touched and in an aww by it ,, these balls exist haaa i am over the moon and over the clouds , the video was so so so beautiful and i watched another video related to it too ,, anyhow now i want to go and attend a ball this year ,, a very beautiful magical fancy and fantastic ball that i enjoy and to catch all these beautiful magic with joy,  compassion, peace and overall thankfulness and gratefulness .

to that beautiful art 2

 i watched cinderella and the prince charles the anime series months ago and here i wanted to talk about the beautiful magnificent art behind it that art that transmits emotions and beauties ,, the music , the illustration , the animation , the moments ,, its really surreal ,  i watched the series couple of times ,, in february and march and i think it extended to april ,,( i watched the series in arabic when i was young in middle school grade 8 or 9 i think it was grade 8 and rematched now with english dubbing , although the arbic dubbing is very good , they cut off the witch scenes when she is doing magic which is very importent parts of the series ( cause magic considered taboo subject whether it be bad or good one) anyhow surprisingly and maybe for the 1st time i am loving the english dub how well they did it ,, it was so good and they took the emotions as they speak very well they excuted them very well ,,i lovvve it so i do really enjoy watching it again and again and again and it was available on youtube ,, oh right i saw that the series was also a japanese and italian collaboration it reminded me of kaiketsu zorro ,, so i was thrilled, excited and happy about that and i think that what drew me to watch it again when i saw that there are italian involvements haha ,, and also i like the rich lifestyle and how the royality play in the series hahaha these are really good things to take and consider haha and they were what brought me to rewatch the series the rich vibes , the nature and the art ,, the art aaah how they illustrated painted and made the animation was just fantastical and magical  i immersed fully and wished the episodes were much longer and there were more episodes to watch,,, when the scene played along with the story , the emotions , the animation and the music aaaahhhhhhh cant describe how i felt and how i would feel if i watch these scenes again ,, this kind of an art that i cherish and proud to say that i am in love with it ,, it makes your life better by elevating you and making you hug these beautiful emotions which play joyfully with the heart strings and make you feel dancing in harmony with life,, what a beautiful art ,, thank you so much .

the beauty of the sky ,, a natural museum

 so i am living in my cousin house these days and what i noticed is that there is a school in front of the second door its a primary and kg school and there is on few steps from the house another branch of a university ,, hear kids and students talking and hear the classes bell is such a breath of fresh air ,,, this reminded me of the time i felt those feelings and what i wrote on thursady here in this blog hehe .

 18th may is around the corner and i went out side the down town yesterday after sunset and on saterday and yesterday was even more crowded and you can see the flags are everywhere and they are displaying them in more places in different formats and shapes wether being fabrics or lights or etc ,, more people were outside , just hanging and making that celebrating vibes everywhere hahaha ,, its nice to see this and witnessed them with my eyes ,, its such an experince and i am feeling o.k with it like as if i have experienced these things before hahaha .

 hello beautiful people,, so finally i catched up the mv and the song of nmixx called sonar and i lovvvvves it ( yesterday or the day before it ) ,, this group caught my attention long time ago and what i love about them the most and what make them stand out the most is their abilities to sing beautifully and strongly while doing the choreo ,, they reminded my of my boys monstax and what i lovve about artists beside their audios and visuals the way that you could enjoy their live stages each time you turned on one ,, cause they sing live which will add different flavors every time ,, and beside nmixx amazing abilities i lovvve their music and i watched their released mvs the last one being sonar ( i already catched up dash promotion which came after sonar before checking sonar hahaha ) and i will listen to their albums tracks ,, so i think i am an nswer.

 i lovvve long ride trips like the trains, ships and the buses when you see the road across the window following you the whole ride and you are in this ride for days not just one day and that really inspire you to write to communicate your emotions through art through papers through records entering your imaginative world away from everyrhing while being in this crowd of people that are joining the same trip with you being in the same vehicle ,, these are moments and clips of life that i lovvve and got to experience few times through buses , i want to experience this through trains and ships away from the internet and with good companion of people like the one i saw on youtube a was a trip on a train for a week as i could remember well that youtuber was for 2 days but some people he met there where there for a week and also the other video when another youtuber joined a ship trip for days with two couple who own the ship ,, these trips remained me of my past trips with the buses , cars and the planes ( though the plane ones were super short for 2~ 3 hours ) and i would love this year to join these trips in very comfortable , good and enjoyable vehicles ships and trains that are not exhausting and being lovelable and be in my own world enjoying AAAAAHHHHHHH ~ WHAT A FEEL ~~♡

also not to forget about the trip that i want to go to antarctica that youtber ( allison anderson ) who went into ~ AAAAAAHHHHHHH ~ PLEASE THIS YEAR TOO 

 i think i missed school and uni days (without the stress of course) ,, those days were i go to the dawam and have the time to control my freedom ,, i think for the past 11 years i was searching for that freedom longing for them , i think now i want and i get that freedom to go to places to engage with people at the same time to be in my own to go whenever and wherever i want and do whatever i want with the freedom of time , money , places etc