dec 22th morning outside view of home window photos diary

dec 22th morning coffee photos diary

things to draw your firm line into

 those sadness and belonging into these 

dwelling into that delusional pain and live your life like that , this is not healthy at all 

like appreciate these moments cause it gonna end !!what HELLO ..NO BIG NO TO THESE SAYINGS that encourage sadness , loneliness, depression and anxiety from

when i accept that time of my days + update

 the after noon till before sunset is the time interval that i didn't know how to deal with it in the past , well its like unfamiliar to me , that time interval and nowadays felt like the time during that time interval is a bit long and worth of doing things during it yet still not got used to it , in the past i used to sleep at that time and sometimes went out and sometimes being really depressed with it and felt lost on how i dont like that time and how i felt like i am not me and how to cut that time

28th jun outing breakfast , photos diary

 Went to the cafe next our home to eat breakfast and celebrate there with our youngest sister finished her last exam in high school 

10th dec

 since i do love to do diffrent things in my life , i am gonna make them often not on daily basis not on scheduled basis , very often depend on how i want that day or the day before at night , sometime taking breaks without doing a thing , other times taking missions and projects to do , all of these things to work on my favor , to not

always be with ALLAH (GOD)

  always be with ALLAH (GOD)

the night started with this pretty scene, photos diray

 took these pictures on 26th of nov 2022

tiramisu photos diary

took these pictures on 24th nov 2022 

tiramisu done by my younger sister 

the beauty in controlling how you are on the internet

 being too much online is not good for your health nor for your life , like spending your time out of internet world is actually really beneficial for you and your surroundings whether it be people or other things , the day is longer and enjoyable your mind is at its own pace , its doing its job in clearing and sort out whats in there , not just that you as a whole are at your pace , you eat your meal clean here talk with someone there or enjoy your time exploring whats around you , meditating

photos diary

28.aug.2022

 

hello

 i am enjoying my time in doing "nothing" and take my time off from everything , roaming around to empty my mind and sort it out to enjoy to feel the joy of life to live life to grasp the richness and absorb the richness of everything good 

always good luck 

쏟아져, you're my shining stardust

what a song , stardust by kihyun !!! a new song that has released about a week ago on my birthday and every time i listen to it it blows my mind , it transfers me into another universe , well to tell you a fact monsta x songs always transfer you into

hugging you to reassure you

 sometimes our anxious minds tell us to run , run and run , keep telling us to do things in order to get and achieve things while in reality we are actually escaping from things !! the survival mood , escaping from a deadline from someone from poverty from loneliness from failure from hate our self from reality , we tend to do

about age

 its really it doesn't really matter if you get married younger or older if you start working younger or older, if you did that or do that younger or older , that right age that we defined our selves with and want the whole world to follow it and if we just see someone out of it for a little bit we exclude them and we squeeze the world into

mornings and the whole days joys

 the nostalgic feelings i felt yesterday and more today , i was telling my younger sister hanan moments earlier about how i miss old days like back into end of 2013 , end of 2014 and 1st half of 2015 when they were all going to school , my older brother and my dad were going to work and me and my mom were working at home , the noises they made in the morning while going out , our neighbors too people in the street in general those morning noises that filled your soul and let you start your day with

some acts of being free for me

not being attach to things , to schedules that may cuff my hands and make me kinda like suffocated unable to walk unable to live unable to enjoy life 

not being attach to not good things , especially when they make me feel like i have to do these things in order to get results , in order to let people see what i am doing , in order ... sorta kinda like i am here i am still alive i want to post things cause this

dive with whats around and beyond

 hello ,,

last umrah that i did and when i was doing the sa'ee i didnt read the quran book that i brought with me which i usually do , i recited it with my mouth quran phrases and prayers while looking around me and walking , i was like i am swimming with the flow of everything that was around me , i didnt want to look at my book or other things i just .. my whole body was just harmonizing with the glory and the

kihyun in leemujin service

 i just watched kihyun in leemujin service today and i am really ... my admiration to him increased a lot today while watching that episode and how strong and beautiful artist he is ,, ahhh kihyun the way he was answering questions and the way he said that how he changed his tones to sing a certain song and the mood around not

lets stop talking so dramatically about not good things & let them go

sometimes we become so dramatic and then we escalate everything not good , like we make every moment that happened in our lives not good as a big especially when it was not a pleasant moment ,

we escalated and raised our voice as if someone or the people who are listening to us ( while we were talking ) that they couldn't hear us lol ..

its so funny cause when u think about it ,its like we are like filming a drama series, those actors who r like being totally involve with them selves , like we are shouting

being able to function again in life

note : this blog post was written on monday 19th of sep .

yesterday at night before sleeping ( or i think it was the day before yesterday cause yesterday i slept immediately after reciting my affirmation so i didnt have time to fly away with my thinking)  anyhow i was like no i dont like deadlines , like me and deadlines are not friends at all and some of those past events came to my mind as i was confirming that and then i was like how people live like that comfortably in

serene moments

 the weather got cooler as the day was about to end , at the evening as we were heading into it , i was making my parents lunch and a little before It's starting to rain and i was cooking under the rain sounds and the rain smell aaaaaaahhhh the smell i lovvvvve that sand smell that comes when the rain start to fall down , then the atmosphere became more cozy and my feelings started to bloom again at those moments before going to cook i took a look at my 2 youngest sisters who were

imagining meeting minhyuk at vogueshipshow

 on saturday morning 

while cleaning the kitchen and washing the dishes i imagined ,meeting minhyuk at vogueshipshow , in the past i used to imagined this as being a guest in the show , ( i talked about the show before here : https://neolhada.blogspot.com/2021/02/vogueshipshow-radio-program-on-its-own.html ) the show ended back then and then now they will gonna open a season two on september 6th and i am super happy .

one of the show habits is that sometimes they called the viewers , those who send

capturing with my phone / my camera

  i lovvve watching the sky , its just super fascinating how it changed each time , the way like the colors the clouds the flying things the air .. everything is so eye captivating and u will not get bored of it , a natural museum .. when you see the sky you notice that the life changes on the same way in a beautiful way each time as you wish as you believe as you pray as you manifest , the glory , 

الحمد لله حمدا كثيرا طيبا مباركا فيه , i am super thankful  and the way i take pictures of sky

hello september

 its second of september , the weather started to cool down and the brownish leaves started to appear , i am feeling super happy , relaxed , contented and sure inside allhamduliALLAH ,

i started to read too ,,

and as i am moving in this life , the believe the trust wrapped me like its hugging me  there are feelings inside me that i don't know how to describe them ... huge huge beautiful warm secure feelings ...the trust the believe .. the faith .. being sure and being in content .. being good all the time 

ALLAH my GOD i am always thankful for guiding me always thankful for enlightening me ..♡❞

 ♡ الحمدلله دائما وابدا 

moments that restore/revive my soul .

 after driving practice session for today ~ 

today i felt how much i missed and how much early mornings outings means to me 

after going to shalal park parkings to see how the road there and searched for another parking area to practice in, the mountains there in front of it the atmosphere and when were heading back home from that way ( which was slightly different from where we used to do cause we entered these parking areas today ) those feelings continued till we entered our neighborhood area and then finally

having breakfast with my little sis's beautiful bread .

and here is me eating the bread that my little sister made the day before yesterday, as a breakfast ^_^ ,,, and here is me took pictures of it below ☁︎’❜⇣⇣

my little sister made a bread .

here my beautiful little sister hanan made this yummy and stunning bread 

and i took pictures of this star with other tiny breads stars that she made also ~

monsta x beautiful night , a song .

 written this blog on 05/03/2021 22:47 ( although i wrote it before when the song released on may 2020 in my twt fan account ) 

the song is super dreamy and it reminds me of those moments , surreal moments in my life , moments that i love to talk about and share it with emotions 

took me 7 years back when I used to took the bus for 24 hours travel to home!! to that time when I lovvved to set next to the window and enjoy watching the sky at night while mostly others were sleeping and I was awake in my own world along the ride ♡

photos diary.

 these photos were from the end of last year till the beginning of this year , if i could remember it correctly 

do it the way it suits you .

when you dont know what to do to study things you want to study and cant follow the steps you have been doing in the past / things or steps that people doing dont works for you , 

invent your own thing ,sit and do it with the most suitable way for you and take this step as leveling up your self and to not be ashamed about or sad that you cant continue doing so because it doesn't work out for you the way it did before ,, its okay, just do it the most enjoyable way ever and dont stress out your self trying to fit on techniques that started to not working for you and may lead you to quit what you want to do because of them , create your own techniques and live your life the most enjoyable best faithful ways ever.

good luck to you to me to both of us to all of you 

have always great moments ♡ .

my breakfast at one day .

hello beautiful people , so it happened at one day i was sitting in front of my breakfast dish eating my breakfast while enjoying the morning atmosphere arounds me and while being like that i loved the view ( well as i always usually do ) and decided to grab my phone and take pictures , well the intention was to take few

i love watching nature and life scenes .

 i love watching nature , this beauty mesmerizes me and i lovvve watching it , i love spending my time watching the nature watching it watching life watching life scenes , instead of watching dramas , series, anime youtube.. etc, i spend my time watching

yesterday's wonder.

 all these pictures are without filters this what it looked like yesterday when i went out side home walking around neighborhood area at sunset and after it until it poured at night and i slept with rainy night 🌙 😌 🥰🤍.

matching this beautiful breezy weather .

dont stick to ur books and ur mobiles and laptops ! go explore the nature , explore the city around you , go for adventure , go and detach ur self from those limited spaces and wide ur horizon , such a refresh indescribable feelings once u get experienced it ,, it renewing ur moments , even on the slightest things u will not get anxiety from the unknown like u will not gonna be anxious from not knowing what to do in ur life as a career life for example , or not becoming super sensitive over people genuine questions and reactions for another example , those moments

stop idolizing the "young" age .

 everything has its own time whether you are " young " or " old " i put them in brackets cause i meant numerically and not actually ,, like the term young or old for me is not what defines you, me or others ,, and when someone achieve something at a " young " age people highlighted that " well not all but those who wanna always make a buzz about it " like to focus on it and thats all !!! that person achieved that thing at the right age at the right time , whether that person is " old " or " young " and while those people focus on it , the achievement at such a very young age , the others who are not aware of that get brain washed by it so either ways they very hyped up that young age or get downsized by it and start to compare as they cant achieve it at their ages or they cant achieve anything because they became "old "

about our trip to jeddah that happened on february . part 3. the last one .

 we stayed there for ~ one hour , i sat on the edge with my sister while my brother preferred to go back to the car after standing with us for a little .. about few steps from us , there were a couple ( i think ) who were preparing their breakfast , table and chairs and sat there in front of the same view of us to enjoy their time while eating their food , i felt a little awkward cause they were near us hahaha i dont know anyhow my sister was like ignore them and do what u want to do so me and my sister were enjoying sitting there on the edge and we were talking and i removed my sandals and put my feet in the water and then we continued enjoying

about our trip to jeddah that happened on february . part 2.

 i sent my brother the location before going to sleep , to one of the beaches out there and then told him that we should go super early like at 6 a.m , the next day after i struggled to sleep with being overwhelm with everything there , i woke up the earliest to pray the fajr at around 5 - 5:30 a.m ( hope i remember correctly ), then i woke up my sis and then my brother was still sleeping a deep sleep that i knock the door multiple times as i could remember then he didn't respond although he is that type of human who wake up to any tiny noises even sometimes to footsteps !!!! anyhow he must be super tired or jeddah air did some magic on him , any how we ( me and my sister ) after praying the dawn prayer we waited for him to wake up until 6 and a half !!! ( still as i could remember ) he was super sleepy , then after he finished with his things we head outside , the weather was super

about our trip to jeddah that happened on february . part 1.

that was a beautiful trip , the 1st trip for me to outside the city ( ta'if ) after the pandemic , we went to jeddah for my sister muna badminton match , the match was on friday after noon , so me and my brother who drove us there went with my sister who about to do the match . we went early in the morning of friday around 7 o'clock , then we arrived at hour hotel at 10 ~ 11 as i could remember , the beautiful hotel that i booked and looked for it from google map , it was such a beautiful elegant clean hotel we got there rest for awhile and then i explore the apartment and then after we had lunch we went the place where my sister had the match on , we dropped her there ( we cant enter with her cause there was no allowance for other people to come inside only the players ) and then we go back , my brother went to

whats living through out the day looks like to me .

yesterday i did lots of living things , watching fancams of monsta x chicago concert day one , to watch kihyun's vlive ( or maybe kihyun's vlive was first ) the eat my breakfast which i did super early like around 6 a.m then to go to take a full shower then went to my social medias accounts and unfollow each one who do illustrations and then posted my original illustrations for sale then did farewell to illustration and drawing world and i felt super satisfied and contented then posted blog a blog post then asked for driving lessons and then after that i solidified my position in life mentally hahahaha i mean regarding the way i function in life ( i may talk about it later in the future ) and then went to make lunch and wash dishes then

no more calculating the time .

 i noticed that habit of me of calculating and monitoring the time , like always especially when its about to hit 12 o'clock pm , like if someone in a hurry and have to finish things up on time and before the supposed time lol , sometimes its o.k to do so ( well even in that matter i prefer not to do ) on the other hand this become a toxic habit that prisons you and makes you always being anxious and nervous and always in a panic to finish things on its time and u transfer these emotions to whom around you .

once u become aware of that and then stop doing it ur life become in an ease and you will be much more in contented , happy and feeling the easiness and the comfort and doing what u r doing on its own time actually your body will move with your flow peacefully cause it feels the secure that u give it by letting all these un ease thoughts to go and let them to disappear and not to come back ever again.

have a great awesome abundant day and night beautiful people ♡.

welcome , Ramadan ,,

 Ramadan is about to knock the door ,, maybe tomorrow or the day after on sunday ( it confirmed to be tomorrow ) will be the start of the holy month !! 

instead of filling it with lots and lots of traditions these which burden your soul and make its entrance super heavy and super unlikable as with progress of the time when years continue to move ,,,

those traditions .. these are not healthy at all ,,,

take ramadan with light wighted and light hearted ,,,,with light entrance and light days and weeks ,,, as light and beautiful as it is .

i absolutely adore & love ramadan and its such a beautiful gift from Allah ,,

i am always thankful ~ ♡ ,,