being able to function again in life

note : this blog post was written on monday 19th of sep .

yesterday at night before sleeping ( or i think it was the day before yesterday cause yesterday i slept immediately after reciting my affirmation so i didnt have time to fly away with my thinking)  anyhow i was like no i dont like deadlines , like me and deadlines are not friends at all and some of those past events came to my mind as i was confirming that and then i was like how people live like that comfortably in

somehow without being super overwhelmed and being freezed unable to walk , to think , to live ( that how it was in my case ) and how i came like that with time 

and then today when was preparing breakfast and everything and since i am about to go to do umrah later in the day  i was like mmm i think all of these happened because of how i used to live before , like at first we used to do our things normally even if we have deadlines , sometimes we relaxed after it sometimes we dont occupy our schedules after finishing one ,until i became busier with time and things started to accumulate with it , some of these things i didnt like to do and didnt enjoy them at all especailly when they occupy all your day and you barley have a time for your self to relax to recharge cause you have to prepare for presentations / exams next day ,, it was really exhausting and was something that i didnt enjoy it at all 

fast forward >>> 

these things in somehow shaped the way i do in life so after graduation i did almost the same system if not much more to apply it in my artistic life that i started after that and then again i didnt have time to sit with my self a time to breath and those deadlines that i made it my self or were from others were a huge huge burden in my shoulders .

+ spending so much time in social medias after doing your works , so you dont have time to do other things and then u just burst !!! 

it kept increasing and increasing and the way i felt about my days became heavier and heavier ( plus lots of other things ) i didnt comb my hair i didnt shower i didnt sleep enough i binged eat a lot i didnt exercise & didnt go out almost, so me being unprepared visually ( which followed by being unprepared mentally and then physically by not being able to move to wake up , being exhausted and getting sick almost all the time ) led me to not wanting to attend places or book for certain times and dates aka deadlines for me and even if i had to do so it became something that i didnt want to do again after i did it once . of how broke down i became , and by the way i am not exaggeration here it was literally like that 

although a very important thing to mention again there were other huge factors that contributed in that ( i didnt write about them here ) .

and all of those made me be unable to function in life 

now after i got healed , time to arrange my life in somehow and not to be afraid of the word deadlines or event dates and to treat it as a normal day filled with balanced excitement and chilled joy , not being anxious or overwhelmed , treat it like a normal day like how you are spending your day normally  , taking care of your self once you wake up and then not consume too much of social medias , things that consume or drained your energy ...etc , dont panic and relaxed and prepared everything before hand , one step at a time until you are able to walk properly again, no procrastinations and know that everything is there for you like u r going to your near super market to buy your favorite snacks and drinks , believe me , its all on how you see it in your brain , everything will go smoothly and enjoyably and your day will be filled with blast and bliss once you trust , brush those unwanted things and circumstances and move forward ,,

always good luck ♡