31 . 05

 may you was a beautiful month like other months ,, thanks a lot for everything ,, now lets slide into june

beautiful pt3

may 6th

no scattered minds

 quitting social medias has really great benefits ,, i can sit to do a thing for long hours without interruption and without me getting frustrated as i used to do while using social medias ,, i can watch longer videos without skipping i can draw i can do what i lovve and what i want without getting distracted without wasting my precious time and without a scattered mind 

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 when i see the beauty in everything good in this life tiny or huge it makes me emotional and about to cry ,, i do cry and let the tears fall down ,, it just captivates me and captures my heart i just got mesmerized seeing and feeling all these beauties inside outside within and without ,, the glory that we dive in as humans as creatures as part of this universe we surrender we praise and we thank ,, always thank you ALLAH 

jooheon and im

 jooheon made an official debut ,, i saw the mv in the morning today and i screamed this is the song of the year ,, just super gooood the mv and the song ,,

i discovered that im opened an official website and i was super happy and i wrote there that this is something i dreamt of and since i dont use social medias anymore , thank you changkyun~a

it rained beautifully in the afternoon today 

stop complaining a lot

 stop complaining and trying to seek attention to be cared by humans ,, focus on what you want in this life focus on what you want today ,, stop wasting your time and energies on complaining ,, you are precious so do your life , do everything you love and everything is good you are a worthy human being ,, be your true self and enjoy the adventure of life 

i am on beautiful tracks

again thanks to GOD that the weather cool down these days ,, really really الحمدلله ,, may it stays like this till this year of 2023 end ^^,, anyhow the way that these days i didnt go out side that much like since ramadan started and i barely went outside like i used to do before remadan , ramadan was super busy and i took some rules from my sister who was sick at some of ramadan days so yeah i didnt go outside that much maybe 2 to few days if i could count ,,any how after ramadan i feel like i

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 hello long time no see ,, how all of you have been ,, i am doing well and thankful alhamdulliALLAH 

may the weather cool down

 it was raining moments ago ,, raining beautifully and i was about to sleep earlier taking a nap ,, i slept a little and then i woke up after my younger sister closed the window cause the rain started to enter the room ,, i am sitting in front / beneath that window that i opened earlier after the rain stopped for a while ,, the beautiful match was at about this same time in south korea earlier kihyun was doing a live on bubble app and he said that its / it was raining and it was like 9 a.m here and there it was 3 p.m and then now when it started to rain it was 2 p.m and now its 3 p.m on the clock ,,, hehe i sent a bubble msg moments ago telling him that its raining here and then now i am sitting in this beautiful air typing my words ,, and i hope that the weather cool down after this rain as i hoped earlier for ki on the live

rain is just a beautiful bliss 

18 . 05

 doing things to escape from others is not good at all ,, doing activities to escape from the things that are not working out and forcing your self to do so is not good at all it filled you up with all these of negative emotions and feelings ,, i am someone who works and do things in her life without schedules ,, schedules strict me and as someone who is free and do what i want to do ,,when i do restrict my self with schedule and time its just hinders me and not good for me at all physically , mentally emotionally and my spirit starts to disappear and to vanish ,, i am aware of my self now and with go with the flow of my heart and live my life enjoyably and fully know that everything is working goood for meeee 

وبالله نستعين

diego my soul mate

 yesterday at night i wrote a blog post and then when i pressed the back button it seemed that it didnt get saved cause when i opened the drafted blog post today to continue what i wrote yesterday / publishing it ,, the post draft was empty hing T___T and i was looking in my phone to re find it and at the end when i couldn't i

17 . 05

here is me ,, one week after i found my treasure ,,

the way my life is so so much better without the distraction of social medias and with me sitting with my art and enjoy my life is immacaple ,, i stopped uploading youtube videos cause i have been for the longest time had no fun doing them or editing them ,, i felt like i was wasting my time and had to stop ,, find the real treasure and the real things that i enjoy my life with ,, that was such a bliss when i decided to add on this too to the other things that i stopped doing for a while ,, and i am super thankful and super grateful for that 

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 me writing here in this blog its as if i am singing and dancing ,, the words come out of my mind like a melody and my fingers typing them as if i am playing a piano ,, a beautiful performance a harmony is being produced while doing so i am on the flow as these thoughts , feelings and emotions coming out of me,,, i am singing and dancing to the melody of this life to the melody of this world to the melody of this universe to the melody of this grace 

the crystal maze

 yesterday i stumbled upon i dont know how ,, i stumbled upon on that old tv program on youtube ,, the program called the crystal maze ,, such a lovely game program that i used to watch with my siblings back in the nineties on tv ( saudi channel 2 ) i lovvvved that program so much ,, and i remember when after we watch it we sometimes ( i think alot of times ) we played the games of the program kinda like finding the crystals and then till the end of the games to that big

the end of ramadan and eid

 the rest of ramadan was as the other days of it ,, at the day before two days of the last day i remembered the announcement that my sister hanan said about fahad alkubaisi coming here after ramadan and got excited that i reserved the date for his coming ,, shortly after she told me about moonbin of astro had passed away thats really shocked me and the shivers drove through out my body ,, that i run in a hurry to make sure and then i read the news ,, r.i.p beautiful soul ,, despite that

14 . 05

 my life these days is sooooo soooo  sooooo diffreent and its me ,,yesss this month was such a huge priceless month of shawal ( the 10th month in the islamic calender which based on the moon phases) ,, like i went to a very different not country a very different universe ,, and the other past days were preparing me to this or yet i was able to be self aware and to be free ,, to that universe to my real me to my real life 

today is monsta x 8th anniversary day

the entrance of monsta x in my life ,, the existence of them in my life and me in their lives is something i wouldn't ask for more ,, i am super thankful and super grateful to be a monbebe to be shownu's wonho's minhyuk's kihyun's jooheon's hyungwon's i.m's bebe ,, i wanted to write a lot ,, now i dont know what to say ,, to be someone that so precious that you cherish ,, the way they are more than just musicians and performance group the way i connect to them so much that they

11 . 05

yesterday ,, i found my treasure ,, the thing/ things that bring me joy in life ,, i no longer lingering on the feeling of being bored by things constantly again and again ,, i am super thankful and super grateful ,, yesterday through the day i was looking conintueing looking for the thing / things that bring me joy that i live doing it and enjoying it with out getting bored quickly with out hating my self , the environments and people around me with out working like that without any means

06 . 05

 today i finally published a youtube video that i kept postponing cause of me not liking the editing ,, i was like i think i am gonna quit youtube as whole lol and then today i was like after again many times of opening this poor video to edit and close it , i opened it today and then boom my fingers and eyes were moving along working like a team , super fast yet super accurate and focused i was just like scanning through the clips and immediately cutting down to seconds in the clip bars and thats how i figure out and will continue work on the way i did today ,, easy , to the point and i will watch it tons of times  الحمدلله 

contrast and saturation of the sky

 today in the morning after i made lahooh lots of lahooh i went to eat it with mo'ma ( its a traditional somalilander dried camel meet ) and went to the set room to eat there ,, saw the sky through the huge window and then there was that huge contrast of the sky ,, the sky was super super rich saturated in blue and then there were strands of clouds going through it which were super white in color super super white resulting in this beautiful super bright contrast ,, the scene was super beautiful adding the beautiful magic to the day ,, it was healing and uplifting and adding beautiful richness and beautiful abundance to ones souls 

الحمدلله

what a beautiful morning

 yesterday while i was heading to sleep i look from our bed room window to see the moon cause it's light was there and i couldn't see it and wouldn't want to open the rest of the window to not wake up my sister who was sleeping at that time and she was a very light sleeper ,, anyhow i saw clouds there where the light beaming through lightly and then went to sleep while being like oh i want to see the moon ,, i woke up earlier and after i prayed and read my quran hanan told me to look at the moon ,,from the huge window hehe and then as i was coming i was telling her that i

farewell twt & insta

 i didnt know that i am finally coming to this ,, i deleted my twt and insta accounts today and they will be totally gone after 30 days as they stated in their websites ( incase you regret doing so and want to come back ) any how the day has come and i didnt expect this ,, the reason the huge reason i let go of them cause how my life

a gift from my own deigo

a necklace a beautiful crescent moon necklace with beautiful words ,

 a gift from my own deigo (๑ºั ³ ˘๑)♥