yesterday in the morning i was standing below the trees face them especially the big tree in our neighbour's home ,,the scene the moment was magical i closed my eyes felt the trees sound felt the wind passing by hitting my face gentely and the trees responding with these sounds , i imagined my self being on wild landscape the earth filled with beautiful grass and i was there standing , closing my eyes and hearing these beautiful nature sounds.

breakfast in one of those days

today's breakfast

 hello ive been here in hargeisa for 10 months now i forgot that i passed 22nd of November it marked my 10th month hahaha anyhow i am in my 11th month now the weather is cool and nice , the temp is not too hot nor too cold ,, its just perfect slightly autumn feels like weather cause we dont wear heavy cloths yet the cloths are the same we wear during summer without the hotness and the heatness of summer season that last for almost whole year ,, it started on February till october if i except a month out of these hotty months it would be june !!! yess june it was quite breezy cool and temperature was quite low in comparison to other months ,, well that add a little uniqueness to this city hargeisa,, though i think if there are trees everywhere and the infrastructure is quite build up the weather would be super cool as i saw that at buurta masalaha ( masalaha mountin)  . anyhow i am super thankful and super grateful that i have this beautiful chance and took views and perspectives on the life here as i learnt a lot , helped and helping tons and tons of people and my surroundings with my uplifting , bright , encouraging healing energies with my existence ♡

GOD bless

lunch in on of those days

 

 the beauty of life 

life is so beautiful and blissful its also depend on how you look at it , how you see it and how you sense it . dont lose your energy on negative things and shift ur energy,  dont waste it on the negative things and make these things non sense,  not on your level and shift ur energy on positive uplifting things , on the life that you want to live without the hatm on your self , the people or your surroundings live your true beautiful life that you direct your energy towards whats matter you toward the beauty , the blisses and the enjoyment and always be thankful and be grateful . its the knowing that everything is working out for you and with all this blissful energies their working together to intensify and glorify the beauty of life all being blessed and intertwining with the good , the uplifting and the beauty .

shift your focus and embody the one who you want to be , focus on it ,all the other screams negative unwanted things will disappear without you notice , and if you are already on that on your world they never appear again infront of you they never appear again in your beautiful world in your beautiful life . set the intentions and your life follow the programs , always GOD with you and within you and you always be blessed ❞

                                    GOD bless you always ♡

  sleeping is very important,  its part of human's life like air like light , it rejuvenates your skin your body your physique and your mind , it heals , it nourishs,  it refreshes you , its a bliss ,, its a gate that enters you and a portal that drives you through the dream world , the parallel universes no its your other univeres as its you who shut down from being here moving with your body to enter another realm to enter and be into your other realms your other univereses ,, even you have the ability to be in the one you leave temporarily like lucid dreams , sleeping is such a beyond fascinating phenomenon its a bond that connects between different universes and the source . so please activate your parasympathetic nervous system by deep breathing by focusing by intending so your brain and body calm down and sleep , have a good time and always have good sleep .

yesterday while watching some of behind the scenes of the drama what comes after love ,,, that scene when they are outside wearing the coats in the winter it just reminded me of me being at jordan during my uni years in winter and it was cold ,,and even the cold breeze and wind hit me yesterday ,, the cold air there is nice when it hits you while you are wearing your jackets ,, it reminded me of beautiful cozy days and as a reminder to be the cherish uplifting bright happy and now rich me to live life to its optimum enjoyable potential 💐🪄💖✨️

 also to add to these scenes ,, yesterday while i was watching an interview of these two actors and they were getting asked about their 1st impression of each and and kentaro was whipping his hand off ,, almost after half of the video has passed already i got goosebumps as if i am there ,, i think i was there and i am there being this kind of popular good lovable human being .like the way i just got the goosebumps as i immediately being positioned there fully dressed and being interviewed OMG !!!!!! 

and while watching kentaro interview with jiyoung at the end of that funny ep as always he said words that i was , am and be them these days his words about loving him self so he can spread the love to all people aaaaaaaAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH i was shocked and i was like there is no way these videos popped up on my youtube ,, like i dont watch new series these days ,,anyhow this was a match made in heaven ,, to the existence of these alike people in my universe its a destiny , the way i live my life delighfully and a match made in heaven that i am super thankful and super grateful for 💖🎀.

my girl ..aaaaaaahhhhhhhh such a kdrama ,, i dont have ..i cant describe how much i love and adore this series ,, one of the most beautiful,  romantic and comedy series ever. i dont know when was the last time i rewatched it ,,, the amount of emotions these actors portrait is beyond phenomenal ,,, really such great acting ( not to forget how i lovvve lovve their fashion too ) ,, the drama was aired back at the end of 2005 - beginning of 2006 ( that is when i was in my last year of high school ) i watched it on 2008 and i think it was on may of that year ,, yeah prior the end of the 2nd semester of that year . i rewatchef again multiple times but i cant remember when was the last time i rewatched ,, i dont think i pass 2010 or even 2009 ,, sometimes i remember watching and listening to its osts which are absolutely phenomenal and sending you to different universes once you hear them , just pull strings of my heart aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh ,, the romance , the true love , your soulmate will end up with you no matter of what happen regardless of the circumstances ( which was a lot in this drama ) and with the absence of all of these , once you are the master of your life ( in regards to this and to the other things) you will be together and you both already know that , inside of you both the feeling of the know , wrapped you your heart in most secure most caring way nost easiest way , it makes you at ease at peace ,, its an indescribable yet describable feeling ever and taking with that feeling not just with being the love of your life forever but with other aspects of life too . while watching this series ( though i still didnt finish it yet as i am writing at these moments) it evokes these emotions again ,, to be more specific its like a reminder,,, a reassure ,, to the abundant easy beautiful, helpful and enjoyable life that i identify with , reassuring these and of who i am as  highly abundant and rich queen as i am and evoking the meaning of true love true sincere romance and .... i dont know ... but i know that this will happen to me and i mean in regard to these beautiful romantic moments with my future husband ,, i am sending my voice and my emotions through telepathy to you my future husband you btter be most romantic , most lovable , most sincere , most caring , most rich ( of course hahahaha) and all these beautiful , rich and understandable aspects of life as i am you my mirror , my love and my partner in life, forever hahahaha

공창 처럼 유린 한테 

you would do everything for me 

حب مخلص حب صادق 

aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh i am screaming as i wrote everything out here hahahaha aaaaaaaAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH 

to my favorite kdrama of all time ( along with others too hahahaha ) thank you for all these people who worked on it ,,, thank you for this terrifically beautiful art ,, i am sending all my gratitude,  love and admiration through the air , through waves and through telepathy ,, thank you for the joy and the love you added and add in these moments of my life whether i watch it , remember it and even living these beautiful lovable moments with my love of my life ,,, thank you is not enough,, yet thank you is more than enough i guess mmmmm.... my eyes are tearing a little bit now with how i am grateful and thankful that i watched and rewatching it again and again,,

thank you from the bottom of my heart ,, sending you thankful and grateful waves and signals that add beautiful and lovable touches into your hearts ,, to all of you ,, to all sincere authentic beautiful creatures that came to perform this art that will stay forever ,,

                           thank you ♡☆❝❞

                                             written 18th oct 2024

 i love lovelyz hi song and the mv its such so touching and fills you with lots of beautiful serene emotions ,, i just got chills with the bridge its a song that i really lovvvvvve lovvvve and lovvvvve so much with lots of lovelyz songs an mvs ,, i also remember how while i was on tumblr and while exploring one of those pages where you can put a song or a melody in the background of the page i heard their predebut release and i filled in love with it immediately and when i searched for it i was like oh these are lovelyz,, cause i think i saw their debut song candy jelly love before it ,, anyhow i was writing about them here cause they gonna make a comeback soon and this year its their 10 years anniversary and after their contract ended in 2021 they didnt make any comeback as if they were disbanded,, thats why this year its just super special that it will be their start of their coming back together as a group and also their reunion project on yoo show with their 1st appearence after 3 years and them performing their songs aaaaaaaahhhhhhhh i lovvvvve lovelyz so much and may they continue flourishing as individuals and as a group with their amazing producers especially their unique producer that i didn't know that it was him until the yoo show ep ,, i was super surprised yet thrilled to anticipate more of his amzing art works with amazing artists like lovelyz ~♡

 the cool , cold and windy rain is just a pure remedy to the soul a refresh energy that's entring your body and mind to sooth them to cleanse them to heal them to simply make you feel the rhythm of this beautiful rain and feel the rhythm of the beautiful life ♡

it was raining moments ago and it's past 5 p.m now and i was enjoying the beautiful breeze and the beautiful rain ♡

 today is 29th of july and its really weird to me that i spent 6 months and one week here at hargeisa,, i am sitting in front of the door out side the house ( the day'ir ) and there in front of me on the side the lemon tree ,, the other long tree and the other longest tree of all the tree hahaha i remember being here in february at one of its mornings i think it was 10~ 11 ish oclock sitting and producing my own melody its like the 1st melody i ever produced and published it in my youtube channel hehe i am sitting here at the same place that i dont now how many times i sit lets say millions hahaha just to emphasize the large amounted of times that i sit here though now its 8 a.m in july with cold weather and back then it was in february with hot weather ,, by the way the weather here is weird , the seasons go like this : winter , summer spring winteresh which is now and then i dont know hahahaha 

and good morning beautiful people .

today in the morning i was super blessed and happy how the little two kids my cousins reacted to my youtube channel especially hibo as the oldest cabiraxman left to continue doing his homework ,and as i watched my vidoes again on the big screen and that child hibo was also watching and being mesmerized that i actually have a youtube channel , hearing my voice and seeing me and what i am doing here and there in the videos ,, i dont know but after watching these videos i really git mesmerized like i was watching a star hahahaha though i was super shy letting them watching while me sitting by their sides it was a pretty refreshing to not feeling shy forward as i continued watching with hibo ,, that gave me courage and confidence to continue and to apprear fully in my upcoming videos being that wholesome artist and youtuber that everyone look for in good ways and me being proud of my self by the quality of the contents that i delivered and continue to and revolve with the things , atmospheres and auras that i love , live by and live with ~♡ 

with so much love 

the enchanting , cozy and dreamy me 

enchancozreamy ♡♡

its o.k if you are in a search of your self ,, if you are in this kinda of ( messy ) worlds or not its o.k to search for your self its o.k to be your self , the true will reveal it self in regards to your life and your surroundings,  when you start to search and remove all these accumalative unnecessary layers on your self when you become your true self your pure self , the fitra that we are originally pure energy from the source .

life will revive it self for you , things will locate them selves into their own places and you live your life in delight . 

the joy and the gratefulness once you allowed them to be they will be , once you remove and just change by simply switch off & on these bottuns then breath to be you and revive ,, you bloom into this indescribable magic ,, you are the magic and you are one of those blessings .

GOD bless you alawys ,,

to my dear self ,,

i adore you 

i love you 

♡

♡

♡

 in terms of birthdays and those kind of dates and deadlines like doing certain projects on timeline or more specific on time limit / date / deadline i dont work with them anymore ,i dont like to restrict my self with time limit i like to do everything with the flow ,, the restriction with time limit made me anxious and stressed cause sometimes i dont feel my self celebrating on the same times/dates over and over again or finishing projects or tasks on certain deadlines over and over again stressing my self out on the time ,wanting to do things quickly without qualifying my skills and without enjoying  , i love to be on my pace on my flow when i finish i finish when i want to do / hold i do and hold, let the world be by its own and do your contribution joyfully enjoyably ,, when it comes to my mind its more joyful and i do things in a blinks of time even if they take time i do them all deliciously hahaha ,, so next time instead of celebrating someones birthday on their birthdate i will celebrate that person in another way on their special day and the other dates and deadlines would be the same ,,

have beautiful joyful blissful days ahead each day everyday  ,,

i am always thankful and always gratful .

 today i went to down town shopping with my older sister sacda and the that feelings the atmosphere that i talked about before maybe here or in my diary happend the engaging crowded living community in the morning the one i experinced back in uni and school ,, it happned today and i was part of it ,, me going out at 9 a.m ,, walking for long ,, shopping ,, ,, i noticed different shops during today's trip the shipping office ,, the art shop while riding the bus ,, ,, talking with the sellers about the prices ,, the wind that reduced the sun temperature and i was able to walk joyfully ,, sleeping in the bus while going back home hahahha ,, we went back home at ~ 12 p.m .

 after i watched cinderella,, i didnt think that these kind of balls existed ever again , ( maybe also because i didn't know the term " ball " in English since i watched the series in arabic before ) anyhow while i was on youtube a channel i follow posted a video on january and she went to a ball ,, that video poped up in my main page on youtube ( i slightly remember that i opened that video before but didnt watched it although i might be wrong and nothing of that happened hahaha ) and i watched it and was really touched and in an aww by it ,, these balls exist haaa i am over the moon and over the clouds , the video was so so so beautiful and i watched another video related to it too ,, anyhow now i want to go and attend a ball this year ,, a very beautiful magical fancy and fantastic ball that i enjoy and to catch all these beautiful magic with joy,  compassion, peace and overall thankfulness and gratefulness .

to that beautiful art 2

 i watched cinderella and the prince charles the anime series months ago and here i wanted to talk about the beautiful magnificent art behind it that art that transmits emotions and beauties ,, the music , the illustration , the animation , the moments ,, its really surreal ,  i watched the series couple of times ,, in february and march and i think it extended to april ,,( i watched the series in arabic when i was young in middle school grade 8 or 9 i think it was grade 8 and rematched now with english dubbing , although the arbic dubbing is very good , they cut off the witch scenes when she is doing magic which is very importent parts of the series ( cause magic considered taboo subject whether it be bad or good one) anyhow surprisingly and maybe for the 1st time i am loving the english dub how well they did it ,, it was so good and they took the emotions as they speak very well they excuted them very well ,,i lovvve it so i do really enjoy watching it again and again and again and it was available on youtube ,, oh right i saw that the series was also a japanese and italian collaboration it reminded me of kaiketsu zorro ,, so i was thrilled, excited and happy about that and i think that what drew me to watch it again when i saw that there are italian involvements haha ,, and also i like the rich lifestyle and how the royality play in the series hahaha these are really good things to take and consider haha and they were what brought me to rewatch the series the rich vibes , the nature and the art ,, the art aaah how they illustrated painted and made the animation was just fantastical and magical  i immersed fully and wished the episodes were much longer and there were more episodes to watch,,, when the scene played along with the story , the emotions , the animation and the music aaaahhhhhhh cant describe how i felt and how i would feel if i watch these scenes again ,, this kind of an art that i cherish and proud to say that i am in love with it ,, it makes your life better by elevating you and making you hug these beautiful emotions which play joyfully with the heart strings and make you feel dancing in harmony with life,, what a beautiful art ,, thank you so much .

the beauty of the sky ,, a natural museum

 so i am living in my cousin house these days and what i noticed is that there is a school in front of the second door its a primary and kg school and there is on few steps from the house another branch of a university ,, hear kids and students talking and hear the classes bell is such a breath of fresh air ,,, this reminded me of the time i felt those feelings and what i wrote on thursady here in this blog hehe .

 18th may is around the corner and i went out side the down town yesterday after sunset and on saterday and yesterday was even more crowded and you can see the flags are everywhere and they are displaying them in more places in different formats and shapes wether being fabrics or lights or etc ,, more people were outside , just hanging and making that celebrating vibes everywhere hahaha ,, its nice to see this and witnessed them with my eyes ,, its such an experince and i am feeling o.k with it like as if i have experienced these things before hahaha .

 hello beautiful people,, so finally i catched up the mv and the song of nmixx called sonar and i lovvvvves it ( yesterday or the day before it ) ,, this group caught my attention long time ago and what i love about them the most and what make them stand out the most is their abilities to sing beautifully and strongly while doing the choreo ,, they reminded my of my boys monstax and what i lovve about artists beside their audios and visuals the way that you could enjoy their live stages each time you turned on one ,, cause they sing live which will add different flavors every time ,, and beside nmixx amazing abilities i lovvve their music and i watched their released mvs the last one being sonar ( i already catched up dash promotion which came after sonar before checking sonar hahaha ) and i will listen to their albums tracks ,, so i think i am an nswer.

 i lovvve long ride trips like the trains, ships and the buses when you see the road across the window following you the whole ride and you are in this ride for days not just one day and that really inspire you to write to communicate your emotions through art through papers through records entering your imaginative world away from everyrhing while being in this crowd of people that are joining the same trip with you being in the same vehicle ,, these are moments and clips of life that i lovvve and got to experience few times through buses , i want to experience this through trains and ships away from the internet and with good companion of people like the one i saw on youtube a was a trip on a train for a week as i could remember well that youtuber was for 2 days but some people he met there where there for a week and also the other video when another youtuber joined a ship trip for days with two couple who own the ship ,, these trips remained me of my past trips with the buses , cars and the planes ( though the plane ones were super short for 2~ 3 hours ) and i would love this year to join these trips in very comfortable , good and enjoyable vehicles ships and trains that are not exhausting and being lovelable and be in my own world enjoying AAAAAHHHHHHH ~ WHAT A FEEL ~~♡

also not to forget about the trip that i want to go to antarctica that youtber ( allison anderson ) who went into ~ AAAAAAHHHHHHH ~ PLEASE THIS YEAR TOO 

 i think i missed school and uni days (without the stress of course) ,, those days were i go to the dawam and have the time to control my freedom ,, i think for the past 11 years i was searching for that freedom longing for them , i think now i want and i get that freedom to go to places to engage with people at the same time to be in my own to go whenever and wherever i want and do whatever i want with the freedom of time , money , places etc

yesterday's sky after sunset

hello beautiful people ,, i am about to reach 4 months ( since january 22th ) since me being here in my motherland somaliland !! and i experienced doing things here and there ,, i want to talk a little about them,,

at 1st i attneded two weddings one the day i arrived ( i arrived on monday ) and the other one on thursday night ( which was a little more of a transition party than being a wedding party ) and these two weddings are for my relatives .

then i transfered from house to house betwen my aunts and my grandma.i went outside around our neighborhood area for walk and discover , went to a clinic and practiced there for few days and saw people behaviors there , looked at the sky and i remember that i saw different stars that were moving at dawns and the 1st time as i could remember that noticed the sparkling starts at night , that train like stars moving ,, the weird colorful sky that i saw at one of the evening at 5 p.m ,,etc 😳 the food ,, poeples behavious and knowledge , the huge effects of social medias here and how people are living in them and how people became separated and rarely come to see each other as they used to do so when i came here before on 2011 , became good at writing somali and reading it .

today's breakfast