some acts of being free for me

not being attach to things , to schedules that may cuff my hands and make me kinda like suffocated unable to walk unable to live unable to enjoy life 

not being attach to not good things , especially when they make me feel like i have to do these things in order to get results , in order to let people see what i am doing , in order ... sorta kinda like i am here i am still alive i want to post things cause this

dive with whats around and beyond

 hello ,,

last umrah that i did and when i was doing the sa'ee i didnt read the quran book that i brought with me which i usually do , i recited it with my mouth quran phrases and prayers while looking around me and walking , i was like i am swimming with the flow of everything that was around me , i didnt want to look at my book or other things i just .. my whole body was just harmonizing with the glory and the

kihyun in leemujin service

 i just watched kihyun in leemujin service today and i am really ... my admiration to him increased a lot today while watching that episode and how strong and beautiful artist he is ,, ahhh kihyun the way he was answering questions and the way he said that how he changed his tones to sing a certain song and the mood around not

lets stop talking so dramatically about not good things & let them go

sometimes we become so dramatic and then we escalate everything not good , like we make every moment that happened in our lives not good as a big especially when it was not a pleasant moment ,

we escalated and raised our voice as if someone or the people who are listening to us ( while we were talking ) that they couldn't hear us lol ..

its so funny cause when u think about it ,its like we are like filming a drama series, those actors who r like being totally involve with them selves , like we are shouting

being able to function again in life

note : this blog post was written on monday 19th of sep .

yesterday at night before sleeping ( or i think it was the day before yesterday cause yesterday i slept immediately after reciting my affirmation so i didnt have time to fly away with my thinking)  anyhow i was like no i dont like deadlines , like me and deadlines are not friends at all and some of those past events came to my mind as i was confirming that and then i was like how people live like that comfortably in

serene moments

 the weather got cooler as the day was about to end , at the evening as we were heading into it , i was making my parents lunch and a little before It's starting to rain and i was cooking under the rain sounds and the rain smell aaaaaaahhhh the smell i lovvvvve that sand smell that comes when the rain start to fall down , then the atmosphere became more cozy and my feelings started to bloom again at those moments before going to cook i took a look at my 2 youngest sisters who were

imagining meeting minhyuk at vogueshipshow

 on saturday morning 

while cleaning the kitchen and washing the dishes i imagined ,meeting minhyuk at vogueshipshow , in the past i used to imagined this as being a guest in the show , ( i talked about the show before here : https://neolhada.blogspot.com/2021/02/vogueshipshow-radio-program-on-its-own.html ) the show ended back then and then now they will gonna open a season two on september 6th and i am super happy .

one of the show habits is that sometimes they called the viewers , those who send

capturing with my phone / my camera

  i lovvve watching the sky , its just super fascinating how it changed each time , the way like the colors the clouds the flying things the air .. everything is so eye captivating and u will not get bored of it , a natural museum .. when you see the sky you notice that the life changes on the same way in a beautiful way each time as you wish as you believe as you pray as you manifest , the glory , 

الحمد لله حمدا كثيرا طيبا مباركا فيه , i am super thankful  and the way i take pictures of sky

hello september

 its second of september , the weather started to cool down and the brownish leaves started to appear , i am feeling super happy , relaxed , contented and sure inside allhamduliALLAH ,

i started to read too ,,

and as i am moving in this life , the believe the trust wrapped me like its hugging me  there are feelings inside me that i don't know how to describe them ... huge huge beautiful warm secure feelings ...the trust the believe .. the faith .. being sure and being in content .. being good all the time 

ALLAH my GOD i am always thankful for guiding me always thankful for enlightening me ..♡❞

 ♡ الحمدلله دائما وابدا 

moments that restore/revive my soul .

 after driving practice session for today ~ 

today i felt how much i missed and how much early mornings outings means to me 

after going to shalal park parkings to see how the road there and searched for another parking area to practice in, the mountains there in front of it the atmosphere and when were heading back home from that way ( which was slightly different from where we used to do cause we entered these parking areas today ) those feelings continued till we entered our neighborhood area and then finally

having breakfast with my little sis's beautiful bread .

and here is me eating the bread that my little sister made the day before yesterday, as a breakfast ^_^ ,,, and here is me took pictures of it below ☁︎’❜⇣⇣

my little sister made a bread .

here my beautiful little sister hanan made this yummy and stunning bread 

and i took pictures of this star with other tiny breads stars that she made also ~

monsta x beautiful night , a song .

 written this blog on 05/03/2021 22:47 ( although i wrote it before when the song released on may 2020 in my twt fan account ) 

the song is super dreamy and it reminds me of those moments , surreal moments in my life , moments that i love to talk about and share it with emotions 

took me 7 years back when I used to took the bus for 24 hours travel to home!! to that time when I lovvved to set next to the window and enjoy watching the sky at night while mostly others were sleeping and I was awake in my own world along the ride ♡

photos diary.

 these photos were from the end of last year till the beginning of this year , if i could remember it correctly 

do it the way it suits you .

when you dont know what to do to study things you want to study and cant follow the steps you have been doing in the past / things or steps that people doing dont works for you , 

invent your own thing ,sit and do it with the most suitable way for you and take this step as leveling up your self and to not be ashamed about or sad that you cant continue doing so because it doesn't work out for you the way it did before ,, its okay, just do it the most enjoyable way ever and dont stress out your self trying to fit on techniques that started to not working for you and may lead you to quit what you want to do because of them , create your own techniques and live your life the most enjoyable best faithful ways ever.

good luck to you to me to both of us to all of you 

have always great moments ♡ .