the night started with this pretty scene, photos diray

 took these pictures on 26th of nov 2022

tiramisu photos diary

took these pictures on 24th nov 2022 

tiramisu done by my younger sister 

the beauty in controlling how you are on the internet

 being too much online is not good for your health nor for your life , like spending your time out of internet world is actually really beneficial for you and your surroundings whether it be people or other things , the day is longer and enjoyable your mind is at its own pace , its doing its job in clearing and sort out whats in there , not just that you as a whole are at your pace , you eat your meal clean here talk with someone there or enjoy your time exploring whats around you , meditating

photos diary

28.aug.2022

 

hello

 i am enjoying my time in doing "nothing" and take my time off from everything , roaming around to empty my mind and sort it out to enjoy to feel the joy of life to live life to grasp the richness and absorb the richness of everything good 

always good luck 

쏟아져, you're my shining stardust

what a song , stardust by kihyun !!! a new song that has released about a week ago on my birthday and every time i listen to it it blows my mind , it transfers me into another universe , well to tell you a fact monsta x songs always transfer you into

hugging you to reassure you

 sometimes our anxious minds tell us to run , run and run , keep telling us to do things in order to get and achieve things while in reality we are actually escaping from things !! the survival mood , escaping from a deadline from someone from poverty from loneliness from failure from hate our self from reality , we tend to do

about age

 its really it doesn't really matter if you get married younger or older if you start working younger or older, if you did that or do that younger or older , that right age that we defined our selves with and want the whole world to follow it and if we just see someone out of it for a little bit we exclude them and we squeeze the world into

mornings and the whole days joys

 the nostalgic feelings i felt yesterday and more today , i was telling my younger sister hanan moments earlier about how i miss old days like back into end of 2013 , end of 2014 and 1st half of 2015 when they were all going to school , my older brother and my dad were going to work and me and my mom were working at home , the noises they made in the morning while going out , our neighbors too people in the street in general those morning noises that filled your soul and let you start your day with

some acts of being free for me

not being attach to things , to schedules that may cuff my hands and make me kinda like suffocated unable to walk unable to live unable to enjoy life 

not being attach to not good things , especially when they make me feel like i have to do these things in order to get results , in order to let people see what i am doing , in order ... sorta kinda like i am here i am still alive i want to post things cause this

dive with whats around and beyond

 hello ,,

last umrah that i did and when i was doing the sa'ee i didnt read the quran book that i brought with me which i usually do , i recited it with my mouth quran phrases and prayers while looking around me and walking , i was like i am swimming with the flow of everything that was around me , i didnt want to look at my book or other things i just .. my whole body was just harmonizing with the glory and the

kihyun in leemujin service

 i just watched kihyun in leemujin service today and i am really ... my admiration to him increased a lot today while watching that episode and how strong and beautiful artist he is ,, ahhh kihyun the way he was answering questions and the way he said that how he changed his tones to sing a certain song and the mood around not

lets stop talking so dramatically about not good things & let them go

sometimes we become so dramatic and then we escalate everything not good , like we make every moment that happened in our lives not good as a big especially when it was not a pleasant moment ,

we escalated and raised our voice as if someone or the people who are listening to us ( while we were talking ) that they couldn't hear us lol ..

its so funny cause when u think about it ,its like we are like filming a drama series, those actors who r like being totally involve with them selves , like we are shouting

being able to function again in life

note : this blog post was written on monday 19th of sep .

yesterday at night before sleeping ( or i think it was the day before yesterday cause yesterday i slept immediately after reciting my affirmation so i didnt have time to fly away with my thinking)  anyhow i was like no i dont like deadlines , like me and deadlines are not friends at all and some of those past events came to my mind as i was confirming that and then i was like how people live like that comfortably in

serene moments

 the weather got cooler as the day was about to end , at the evening as we were heading into it , i was making my parents lunch and a little before It's starting to rain and i was cooking under the rain sounds and the rain smell aaaaaaahhhh the smell i lovvvvve that sand smell that comes when the rain start to fall down , then the atmosphere became more cozy and my feelings started to bloom again at those moments before going to cook i took a look at my 2 youngest sisters who were